my life so far

pressure at work and personal struggles are at their peak now. i'm tired, not so much physically, but more emotionally. my acid level has sky-rocketed, and i'm not quite sure how long i can take this. i've already cried thrice this month with no particular reason at all. all i know now is that i'm dead tired and i'm not well.

i long for september when i will finally detach myself from corporate duties and fly away to a place far and worry-free. i have several options in mind but i haven't decided yet. i would love to come home to the warm embrace of my family in the province. they will definitely soothe the pain and burden i'm feeling now. i also want to escape to a foreign land and meet total strangers. who knows i might bump into mr. right. i'm excited to rest on a hammock and turn the pages of books piled up in my room waiting for me to read them. i crave to feel the caress of the wind while i rest on a rocking chair in a seaside veranda. i love to see the sun set and to wake up to its first ray. i want to feel the sand on my feet, the warmth of the morning sun, and the soft cover of my parents' bed. i want to taste my mother's homemade breakfast. i want to hug my dogs. i wanna breathe and live life the way it should be. God, i'm missing out on a lot of wonderful things in life.